Hell-Pavers, Inc.

April 12, 2009 at 4:19 am (my funny valentine)

Eavesdropping on the source of an earlier post recently, it has become glaringly obvious to me that the prayer “Lord, save me from your followers!” is perhaps the only religious ritual worth its salt (so to speak) when it comes to religion. Even loosely-organized religion.

That said, I fully admit that I have not been enjoying a very positive frame of mind towards religion, in recent days…….


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The Prodigal Valentine Prays Again

April 4, 2009 at 11:25 pm (Personal Insight, Praxis, Prodigal Valentine) ()

Going through my personal rosary of the ascent with the Poimandrian meditations (instead of the Sophian mythologies I have been using) was a bit sketchy at first. Then I got to thinking about an email an ex-minister from my ex-church sent me recently, and things suddenly clicked into place.

My initial thought on using the Poimandrian meditations was “Why do I have to leave lying, cheating, deceitfulness, etcetera ‘behind’? I don’t do those things in the first place!”

Can you guess what’s coming? The email was about forgiveness. When I first got it, I admit, I was a little bit “Way to miss the point, D.,” but I refrained from hitting “Reply” and sending that knee-jerk response out into cyberspace (See? Maybe I am getting better.), and it’s a good thing I did.

All in all, it proved a very calming meditation, leaving behind the force to grow and decrease, the machinations of evil, the guile of lust, domineering arrogance, unholy daring and rashness, striving for wealth by malicious means, and the malicious lie.

I understand, I think, what the religious Gnostics mean when they speak of Archons. They may couch the term in anthropomorphized or physiologized terms, but in the end, the Poimandrian Ascent of the Spheres outlines the Archons very well.

Archons which can also be without, as much as they can be within, you. As above, so below. As within, so without. You leave behind those things, whether you are instigating them, or they have been instigated against you.

Not quite the traditional religious notion of “forgiveness”, but it’s the version that seems to work for me, and one I am going to stick with, for the time being.

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Prodigal Valentine

April 3, 2009 at 1:54 am (my funny valentine, Praxis) ()

For someone long-used to life in a black-and-white world, tonight may have been a good exercise in compromise. Albeit it is a bit of a false dichotomy; after all, I don’t think engaging in active praxis (going through a gnostic rosary) would go over quite so well in person, amongst a group that prides itself on non-ritualistic rituals. Hiding behind a wash of electrons, however, no one can judge others on how they meditate, or even know that they are meditating, or how.

Rituals still give me the heebie-jeebies, which is probably why I’ve never “engaged” in mine the same way twice. Mentally, yes, but physically? Never the same way twice. Men create gods, and I’m not about to set myself up with one that forces me into a “narrow path” where there’s only “one true way”. Been there, done that, really don’t need any more battle scars. Being in thrall to one Demiurge is enough for several lifetimes, thanks.

Still, my experience tonight was interesting, and instructive. Yes, it is a bit pick-and-choosy, but I am still an atheist. It is my own brain only that I am tailoring these practices for. There’s not a thing in the world wrong with that. The several layers of separation also lets me get away with being myself in a way that would otherwise egregiously offend, in person.

Will this be a viable post-modern Valentinian alternative? Or more self-inflicted archonic forces? Time will tell.

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